It’s hard for her, I know this and tell her I understand. Last night, we went out, and I very much enjoyed her company. She didn’t quite feel that way this morning, as she told me with tears. I know all this is hard on her, but she has to understand it is so much harder for me, having to watch her crumble day after day when I am supposed to be giving her the support she needs.
I’m trying.
Worst part is, she has control over this, I just have to sit back and watch. Do I give her space she wants? Do I separate like she asked before? Do I just put my ring on the table and tell her to stop hurting? I don’t know what I’m supposed to do, or even how to manage this in the meantime.
I need to be strong for her. For me. I don’t know if I have another choice.