All posts for the month March, 2010

Well, the time is ticking until Robbi does the inevitable. She definitely has made a choice to push me aside and move on to find whatever it is that she thinks will make her happy. As of now, she has a husband who loves her more than life, who also loves his kids. I’m not sure what it is that is missing, and frankly, I don’t think she does either, she just believes happiness can’t possibly come from me.

It’s wrong.

She will find out in the future that everything she was looking for she had all along. It will be too late then, and it saddens me.

My life is being destroyed on someone else’s gamble. There isn’t anything I can do anymore but to move on and somehow find…well, I don’t know what I’m supposed to find. I had everything I ever wanted already. Anything in the future is a downgrade, for sure.

Maybe I can find someone who WANTS to love me, and WANTS to take care of me when my MS really takes a dive, and WANTS me for ME.

I’m sorry for not being what you wanted, Robbi.

Tick tock.

Some of the little things you do or say can be sooo amazing and heartwarming to some, yet go unnoticed by others. What causes this?

Simple compliments, paying for a dinner, sending flowers to a workplace can be seen as such great acts of kindness and caring to some, but yet “what you should do” by others and not get the attention of the act itself.

I just want those acts to be seen for what they are, and not what “should be done”, by the one person who I’m trying the hardest with.

I love putting smiles on other people’s faces. Why can’t I put one on yours?


Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma – which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.