Well, the time is ticking until Robbi does the inevitable. She definitely has made a choice to push me aside and move on to find whatever it is that she thinks will make her happy. As of now, she has a husband who loves her more than life, who also loves his kids. I’m not sure what it is that is missing, and frankly, I don’t think she does either, she just believes happiness can’t possibly come from me.
She will find out in the future that everything she was looking for she had all along. It will be too late then, and it saddens me.
My life is being destroyed on someone else’s gamble. There isn’t anything I can do anymore but to move on and somehow find…well, I don’t know what I’m supposed to find. I had everything I ever wanted already. Anything in the future is a downgrade, for sure.
Maybe I can find someone who WANTS to love me, and WANTS to take care of me when my MS really takes a dive, and WANTS me for ME.
I’m sorry for not being what you wanted, Robbi.