Why is true love so difficult to obtain? Maybe you think you have it, but if it\u2019s one sided, is it really true? Is it possible to make someone love you and stay by your side for better or worse? After all, isn\u2019t that what the papers say? <\/p>\n
I don\u2019t know why this is happening to me. Where did I go wrong? Did I do wrong? Building a good family has been a dream for me. I love kids. I love loving another person as much as I do. Why can\u2019t I make it real? Can I? I have gone through so much, don\u2019t I deserve happiness? What about me in all this?<\/p>\n
Maybe it\u2019s my disease. That\u2019s just one more burden she doesn\u2019t want to deal with. I don\u2019t like being a burden on anyone. I don\u2019t want to be carried around anymore. I need to change. I need to love me first before she can really love me. I\u2019m not happy with my past flaws, and I\u2019m praying they stay as \u201cpast flaws\u201d. <\/p>\n
Who knows, it\u2019s probably too late already. I\u2019m never going to find any one else as special as she. I have to be prepared to live my life alone. It\u2019s not something I want, but I can\u2019t make someone stay. I hope she figures it all out, and I hope it\u2019s in my favor. I just don\u2019t think it is. I\u2019m sure all he has to say is the words that he will care for her and her kids, and she is gone. Just like that. Everything ends. Sad thing is that it\u2019s not in my control.<\/p>\n
For unspoken reasons, I no longer root for the Indianapolis Colts.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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